every wish i waste on you
Echo
The fish in the pond eat coins, turning them to wishes. They never eat my coins, though I always wish for the same thing.
To live again.
No matter how many coins I throw, they never accept them. “Please no coins!” They plead. “We cannot give you what you need!” Yet I wait… and wait.
Then she sees me. I am playing with the leaves fallen from the trees; she is leaving the library. One by one, I lose my form. She still sees me.
“What’s your name?” She asks me. I cannot speak. “May I call you Echo, then?” I nod, pleased. The flowers nod with me. Her smile is like a fresh spring breeze after many winter weeks. “I am Kai,” she says. She feels like the ocean, a breaking wave upon my soul. When I leave her that night, I feel as if I have finally opened up my eyes after decades of being asleep.
When I return to the water, all my coins have been eaten.
By the Window
By the window I sit,
in a chair the colour of piss.
Watching the leaves fall all around,
November rain a soothing sound.
By the window I sit,
with the sun streaming in.
Stained golden by the leaves,
breaking through the tallest trees.
By the window I sit,
an empty classroom at rest.
With the sunlight so warm,
by the window I fall asleep.
elemental
I see things that are untrue.
Burned into my eyelids, just for you.
you took my words away from me.
you left me bleeding in the sea.
I will rise from the waves,
carrying a hurricane.
I will rise from the earth,
bringing earthquakes to your door.
And I will rise through the sky!
bringing such light you will know
what it is to be blind.
And I will walk through the flames.
The world will never be the same.
okay
I’m starting to feel okay without you.
I don’t know when I began to realize.
Now that I do, I begin to feel more free.
anD m0r3 Con_fu5eD
palpitate
this will never go away,
i know with certainty.
when i see the way
your hair begins to curl
as it’s growing out.
the way you look,
i remember your smell.
the feeling of you in
my heart.
beside me.
my heart will always
beat for you.
my soul will always
shine for you.
i will always
feel for you.
these palpitations will
never leave me alone.
no matter how much i
want them to.
Hello Moon
Hello, Moon,
bright and blue.
Stars shine bright
just for you.
Hello, moonlight,
soft and kind,
to keep me company
this lonely night.
Hello, moonshine.
Sweet as bitter wine.
To the stars on my tongue,
I whisper of a dream
as I let sleep come.
faceless
i dreamt of you.
you were faceless again.
i do not know why this happens.
opening
[PRESS PLAY]
there is no light in this
place where i reside.
my eyes go black and
there
is
only
condemnation.
can you imagine being devoid?
a soul like nothingness.
what allows you to imagine?
what allows you to wonder?
[PRESS REWIND]
once i had felt the light.
once i was the light.
now i am lost, eyeless.
if only i could unsee.
if only i could unspeak.
what to do when such
secrets blind you, silence you.
[FORWARD TO THE FALL]
i thought i was sunlight.
i thought i was kind.
now i understand
i understand.
nothing can be undone.
it can only be remade.
danger
you want to believe they will grow to miss you. you know you are wrong when you say they will realize what they let go. they never made a mistake; you didn’t either. it was a flame meant to suffocate. while you got hit with the explosion, they had lit the fuse. they were walking away and left you to pick up the mess that was made. what pieces of belief you had were shattered; you worked so hard to put them together. soon, your skin will harden to protect those parts of you that are so naive. bombs will fall around you, and you will get knocked off your feet. but the more they happen, the stronger you will grow, and the easier it will be to pick yourself up off the floor. this is what life is. this is the danger of love. this is the danger of hope. this is the danger of trusting anyone besides yourself. you can’t even do that anymore, though.
you will grow.
i have an imagination 